Dear baby,
On Tuesday we had our 20 week ultrasound and got to see you for the very first time. I saw you wiggling around. Moving your hands towards your little face. I saw your heart beating. And I was overjoyed. I was experiencing feelings for you that day that I had never really felt for your big brother when we went in for his ultrasound. That doesn't seem to make sense, does it? Well, that night while laying in bed, completely in love with the day, I thought about how Liam is the one who taught me how to feel this way...how to feel so much love for you already. When I was pregnant with Liam, I didn't know what the love that is born out of becoming a mother really was. I didn't know how to love Liam. I didn't know how to feel about him at all really. Getting to know Liam, to become his mother, to learn how to take care of him and keep him safe has made me a better mother for you already.
Little baby, still kicking around in my tummy, I know you are the second child, and that may seem like it means it's not such a big deal because we've done this all before. But I disagree. The joy of growing you inside of me, feeling you kick, seeing your face and hands and heartbeat...I already have the love for you that I actually had to slowly grow into what it is today for your big brother. Liam's gift to you is the gift of my unconditional and overwhelmingly fierce adoration for you already.
Liam taught me how to love you and love you both so much. I can't wait to meet you in September.
